.I am appearing on two panels at the L.A. Times Festival of Books on Sunday. (Ap.26) I did this a few years ago and found it very enjoyable even though I was adrift in a sea of successful authors who didn’t seem to necessarily have the same issues with trying to write that I do. One guy who sat next to me on a fiction panel said that he gets up every morning and writes from eight to noon because to him it just feels like “turning on the tap to watch the ideas flow out.” I can’t even get started until I have an imaginary boxing match in my mind where I repeatedly punch myself in the face until I agree to start. Like today, when I am doing this instead of writing. Almost every day I argue with myself about whether or not I even have anything to say. The whole thing is kind of an ordeal . It kind of looks like this.
blog post on April 22nd, 2009 by Merrill Markoe